Why not? Aren't we supposed to be here to become better? How is it better to learn to stop caring about dying? It should be a fundamental frakking change! I don't just mean Dean. You, me, anyone. We die, and then we die again, and again... how does that do anything but devalue the entire thing?

I mean-- frak. You don't think anyone cared about my leg, do you? Why would they? There wasn't a single one of us who hadn't already seen worse. Do you really think it's okay that this is a place where someone can be ripped the frak apart and the group opinion is--

[It's a thing he's noticed in himself, too. A monstrous, horrible thing, but one he can't bring himself to feel all that guilty about: he just doesn't care about most of the stories he hears here. The only one that's made him sit up and take any notice was Erik Lensherr. The rest? Someone's family died, someone's angry at their father, someone betrayed a friend. Well--]

"Been there, done that."