[Again, there's that brief moment of hesitation when Dean's fingers touch his knee. All the previous... activity... has gotten him a lot more used to that, enough that he doesn't actually openly react, but there's still a brief pause that hangs in the air that appears and dissolves again almost imperceptibly. Like he still has to actively remember that he doesn't have to worry about that anymore, and maybe he still will for a while.]
It's been about... [Even he's surprised when he does the mental math, blinking, glancing back at Dean.] Huh. Nine months, give or take. Not counting the missing year. [Which means it's only been seven or so that he's known Dean, and doesn't it feel like longer? It will occur to him, much later, that he's wrong about this, that they don't know each other well enough for it to have been that long. That they actually know a lot less than they should for that amount of time. Right now, though, he's surprised.]
You think I got used to it. [And that might be true, too. He tucks his arms against his chest and presses a hand to his mouth, like he's staring at a computer readout, thinking. Not used to it enough, if so, that's the problem. Not so used to it that it wasn't a liability, and Dean is right to echo his words here, he thinks. How could he have said no?]
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It's been about... [Even he's surprised when he does the mental math, blinking, glancing back at Dean.] Huh. Nine months, give or take. Not counting the missing year. [Which means it's only been seven or so that he's known Dean, and doesn't it feel like longer? It will occur to him, much later, that he's wrong about this, that they don't know each other well enough for it to have been that long. That they actually know a lot less than they should for that amount of time. Right now, though, he's surprised.]
You think I got used to it. [And that might be true, too. He tucks his arms against his chest and presses a hand to his mouth, like he's staring at a computer readout, thinking. Not used to it enough, if so, that's the problem. Not so used to it that it wasn't a liability, and Dean is right to echo his words here, he thinks. How could he have said no?]