[She can hear Jefferson's mad laugh in her memories, and before her own bubbles up she shoves it away and shakes her head.]

I don't like hurting people, Felix.

[The problem there being that she doesn't particularly mind it anymore. She doesn't feel the need to recognize that at all.]

I don't feel out of my mind anymore. I don't feel like poisoning half the Barge anymore. [Except for the days when she thinks she just doesn't care enough.] Should I bee more specific? It was a mistake, and I paid for it!