[Don't you do that, he wants to say. What am I supposed to do with that? maybe, or maybe jump on it, grab it with both hands, spread out all the good things that come to mind as quickly as he can, convince Felix to stay. Yell at him maybe. Or ignore it all, every last shred of it, and live in this exact moment and be happy. Be happy for Felix, for them, and don't allow himself to look at tomorrow morning when it's all over.
Don't allow himself to hope. It's a good thing Felix knows what might happen to Dean, because Dean himself has no idea. His end, still audio only, is dead silent until he's stalling himself by handling the communicator, pushing buttons, back-locking the entire conversation to private. By the time he's done, he thinks, he'll have an answer.
He doesn't. He thinks maybe he should cut the feed before he says or does something stupid. He doesn't.]
~~~> Private + Retroactive Private
Don't allow himself to hope. It's a good thing Felix knows what might happen to Dean, because Dean himself has no idea. His end, still audio only, is dead silent until he's stalling himself by handling the communicator, pushing buttons, back-locking the entire conversation to private. By the time he's done, he thinks, he'll have an answer.
He doesn't. He thinks maybe he should cut the feed before he says or does something stupid. He doesn't.]