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[Inmate Filter]

[It was a very good weekend with a very bad ending for Felix, which might be why he's back to smoking in front of the camera again. The collar of his shirt is unbuttoned as well, although he otherwise seems as composed as usual.]

Do any of you know why you're here?

[He pauses, then smirks ruefully.] For once, I'm not trying to sow dissent. I don't need you to tell me what kind of monster the Admiral is. I'm just... wondering what you think it is he thinks you need to change, and...

Well, no and. Just that.

[Private to Claire Bennet]

Could I ask you a question?

[Private to Trip, Racetrack, Barbara, Charles, separately]

I have something to tell you. [He glances away from the screen for a second, worry -- or something worse -- flashing in his eyes.] I... think I might really be a traitor this time.

If you're receiving this message-- [A tacit, almost wordless admission that there are others involved here, multiple victims.] --it's because I've been gathering information on you. My resources have been... limited, but I've compiled a detailed file that contains more or less everything you've said on any public or warden-only filter, and in some cases, in private communications as well.

I honestly thought that, given my... my history, I was doing what was best for myself and for the ship, but I realize now that I was wrong. I take full responsibility for my actions.

[Spam for Dean]

[Felix had left the room as soon as Dean had, the night after the flood, and he's been laying even lower than usual ever since. It's not that he wants to stay away, not this time -- he's just assuming that Dean wants nothing to do with him, and as much as he already misses him, he doesn't want to provoke a confrontation when he has nothing more to say in his own defense and no particularly convincing argument to make Dean take him back.

Honestly, things seem to go better for him when he avoids conflicts, anyway.

Unfortunately, though, he actually needs some things from the room, so he tries to pick a time when he suspects Dean won't be around. He still has the key, so he slips inside quietly and starts collecting his things, with every intention of leaving the key behind and no further trace of himself.]

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He left. I don't know what else you want to hear.

I'm not talking about just leaving the Barge.

For once in your life, Felix, speak plainly.

People in the past have gotten a little uncomfortable when I do. [But fine, Morgana, gods.] I'm saying I found it much easier to accept dying than accepting being here. On the off chance that I'm ever allowed out of here again, I've always planned to...

[But for once, he balks.] I haven't had any other plans.

You'd rather die than take a second chance.

[She understands it perfectly, now, though she wishes she didn't.]

Maybe he is waiting for you to change your mind.

Oh, for gods' sake. [But his exasperation is at the Admiral and not at her, because what if that really is it? He doesn't know the phrase catch-22, but if he did...] That's ridiculous. I don't even know what else I would do with myself.

What would you do? If you could.

What I want is what I'd have to give up to leave. [She shrugs.] What I would do doesn't matter.

[Right now, she thinks she'd die; she just doesn't want to say it.]

It sounds like you and I are in more or less the same boat, then.

That is a terrible joke.

[He looks blank for a second -- then, despite the heaviness of the conversation, actually laughs out loud when it clicks.] Oh, frak. I didn't mean that.

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I know. [She lets herself smile; she doesn't want to tell him, that it's nice to talk again - even if it is.]

In any case, I suppose we are.

[It is. He's smiling now, too, even though his voice goes dry again.] Honestly, there are times I wonder if the grand purpose of this place isn't just to make us say 'frak it' to having convictions.

There's not much to wonder. [She's jaded enough at this point to expect everything to have a darker purpose.]